So it was my intent to write everyday... where does the time go?? I think sometimes I just let it get AWAY from me. I give my time away so cheaply. I do not make the things I want a priority.
Well I guess if they were a priority I would do them. I have been getting to the gym 5 days per week, working hard while I am there... but, the eating has been NOT GREAT. So it begs the questions... how much of this is a priority?? Why not just eat better, feel better, lose weight. What am I scared of?? What do I have to gain and what do I have to lose??
First I do want to be thin and healthy... ok my knee is feeling better as I have been working out... but, eating healthy would give me more energy to do the things I want...another question...what is that?? What do I want to do??
Eating better is a good idea at best... not the PRIORITY that it should be... who said it should be?? Why are they in charge of my priority list?? What if eating stays at this level??
Scared?? That is the tricky one, I do know what scares me. HONESTY ALERT: If I am more attractive, thinner, healthier I may attract the attention of someone... not the someone who is happy for me to say FAT. I am committed to him, I just don't know that I am overly attracted or interested in him. Also, healthy people live longer... what is the point of that?? Being alone or worse LONELY for even longer.
What do I have to gain. Feel better about myself, easier to move, stronger, cuter clothes and FEAR... fear of gaining it again.
What to lose, comfort in the anonymity of fat! I am just another Chubby Chick. No real reason to work at it.
Well, there were a ton of questions brought up and some interesting answers... I must think about this more to see if more in-depth answers come to light.
So in the mean time I will put some REAL focus on the eating better plan... I am working hard, so I might as well give it my all. I tend to be 100% of nothing... so 100% it is starting NOW!!! I have more to gain than to lose!!!
Dive in Chubby Chick... the water is warm!!!
