This is the day... the day that things change? the day that I find peace? the day that I move forward?
I guess tomorrow is the day!
Tomorrow holds the hope
Tomorrow holds the change
Tomorrow holds the NEW ME
Chubby Chick!!!
Thursday, April 7, 2016
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
Long time no Blog
As always, I am not current on getting my thoughts on WEB. Like it really matters. My rantings are really just a random group of thoughts that really don't matter a hill of beans. I should just get my $h!t into a pile and get this done. I seem to just waist so much time and effort on PLANNING and not enough on getting it done...
I wish I had more to report. All I have lost is around 30 pounds... 60 left to go. If I could get a handle on the little things like cookies and chips, it would be closer to 40. but, alas I am not that good. I need a good shovel to pile it all up together to make a good pile and toss that son of a ...... out into the trash.
Value myself, not like "I am so great" but, like I am worth the effort! Stupid, stupid me!!! I am so worth the effort... not put the effort in!
I need to realize that I need to SUCK IT UP!! Get my ass moving and get fit!!!!
Onward and smaller!
Chubby Chick!
I wish I had more to report. All I have lost is around 30 pounds... 60 left to go. If I could get a handle on the little things like cookies and chips, it would be closer to 40. but, alas I am not that good. I need a good shovel to pile it all up together to make a good pile and toss that son of a ...... out into the trash.
Value myself, not like "I am so great" but, like I am worth the effort! Stupid, stupid me!!! I am so worth the effort... not put the effort in!
I need to realize that I need to SUCK IT UP!! Get my ass moving and get fit!!!!
Onward and smaller!
Chubby Chick!
Sunday, February 21, 2016
Everyday is a new day!!!
Everyday... like everything, everyone like it encompasses ALL things... but if I look closely, EVERY is not ALL. There is always the exception to the RULE!
I must be an exception... I must not be the rule. The rule, the norm, the usual, I must get my crap in the pile... I know that I am such a loser and need to really try to move forward into the future healthy ME!!! I have tried, I have given up, I have succeeded, I have failed. So, I am totally in-change and need to make the commitment... not decision (those are fleeting), if I commit to ME to healthy me!
I have so much to get healthy for... 1 husband, 3 kids , 2 (kids) in-law, 4 grand kids and counting. They all mean the world to me. If I can't get healthy for me, I need to get healthy for them. But, I am important too...
If I look at my life, my sweet grandmother is the most important person in my life... how to make a good Christian woman, how to love your family, how to make others feel loved, how to serve others. I want my grand kids to have the same feelings for me... I know that it is selfish and self serving. I LOVE my grandmother more than I even know... I base my life on HER. Someday when I am gone, I want them to have fond memories of a healthy, happy, giving, LOVING, GOD serving woman.
I will be Me... I will be fit, I will be!
Chubby Chick!
I must be an exception... I must not be the rule. The rule, the norm, the usual, I must get my crap in the pile... I know that I am such a loser and need to really try to move forward into the future healthy ME!!! I have tried, I have given up, I have succeeded, I have failed. So, I am totally in-change and need to make the commitment... not decision (those are fleeting), if I commit to ME to healthy me!
I have so much to get healthy for... 1 husband, 3 kids , 2 (kids) in-law, 4 grand kids and counting. They all mean the world to me. If I can't get healthy for me, I need to get healthy for them. But, I am important too...
If I look at my life, my sweet grandmother is the most important person in my life... how to make a good Christian woman, how to love your family, how to make others feel loved, how to serve others. I want my grand kids to have the same feelings for me... I know that it is selfish and self serving. I LOVE my grandmother more than I even know... I base my life on HER. Someday when I am gone, I want them to have fond memories of a healthy, happy, giving, LOVING, GOD serving woman.
I will be Me... I will be fit, I will be!
Chubby Chick!
Saturday, February 6, 2016
On the Verge!
I am on the verge... the verge of what I ask myself. The verge of change, the verge of move your ass, the verge of giving up! Well that is the question... I pick...MOVE YOUR ASS. Days of hoping and dreaming of being the ONE I am to be.
I feel so sluggish and lazy. I remember feeling in-charge and powerful. I want to feel that again... not super size 4 skinny... just healthy, move easily and the best me God intents. I want to know that I am all that I can be. Sounds like I am joining the Army. Not that ambitious. Just MOVE!!!
Someday I will read this and laugh at how simple and how really complicated it really was. Someday... that is today, well because it is almost 9pm, tomorrow is the day! The first day of the week the day to embrace the change, the day to make the MOVE. Move as in literal movement and figurative get off my lazy ass move, mental move and stop waiting around for the perfect time MOVE.
VERGE... of change, of strength, of the new me. New as in the "true" me! New as in "get out of my head" me. I am my worst enemy. Gotta pull myself together... get my shit in a pile... see the best in me!
I must look for the best in myself... I must stop seeing the flaws and see the best! I am on the verge of seeing the potential and the best in me. I hate the LOVE YOURSELF thing... tolerate, embrace and give myself a break, may be the path that I need to take .
Chubby Chick on the Verge of greatness!
I feel so sluggish and lazy. I remember feeling in-charge and powerful. I want to feel that again... not super size 4 skinny... just healthy, move easily and the best me God intents. I want to know that I am all that I can be. Sounds like I am joining the Army. Not that ambitious. Just MOVE!!!
Someday I will read this and laugh at how simple and how really complicated it really was. Someday... that is today, well because it is almost 9pm, tomorrow is the day! The first day of the week the day to embrace the change, the day to make the MOVE. Move as in literal movement and figurative get off my lazy ass move, mental move and stop waiting around for the perfect time MOVE.
VERGE... of change, of strength, of the new me. New as in the "true" me! New as in "get out of my head" me. I am my worst enemy. Gotta pull myself together... get my shit in a pile... see the best in me!
I must look for the best in myself... I must stop seeing the flaws and see the best! I am on the verge of seeing the potential and the best in me. I hate the LOVE YOURSELF thing... tolerate, embrace and give myself a break, may be the path that I need to take .
Chubby Chick on the Verge of greatness!
Saturday, January 30, 2016
A Day that I wasted!
I guess that today was not a waste. I spent the morning with my beautiful, sweet and funny Granddaughters. I had a wonderful morning with them and Liz and Nathan. Quilted on Sam's birthday quilt, got to kiss my sweet "baby", yes he is 10 but ,he will always be my baby. I did get to pray for my dear Thomas, Drea and the sweet baby that is on the way. I can't wait to hold and kiss the "newest" baby!
I didn't get in my 10,000 steps, I did not get a workout in. I am just as chubby... ok, I did get into some of the "storage" shirts. Well, plastic bag clothes. I must begin... I must workout, I must move forward. Movement is better than stagnant...that is were I have been. I want to be the "ME" I was meant to be. Push myself and not give into the stupid, lame excuses that plague me... I am infected with the plague of complacency... stupid, wait and things will get better and I will miraculously change. Wait... giving a crap and moving my friggin ASS will help.
I am worth a crap! I am worth the movement, I am worth fixing myself, I am worth more than I have given myself credit for.
I have said this, written this and believed this before... TOMORROW IS the day... tomorrow... always tomorrow. When will tomorrow be TODAY?? I guess January 31, 2016 IS the day! I must get up and MOVE. Food has been ok for awhile now... workingout has been non-existent. That ends NOW...
Chubby Chick... ready to move.
I didn't get in my 10,000 steps, I did not get a workout in. I am just as chubby... ok, I did get into some of the "storage" shirts. Well, plastic bag clothes. I must begin... I must workout, I must move forward. Movement is better than stagnant...that is were I have been. I want to be the "ME" I was meant to be. Push myself and not give into the stupid, lame excuses that plague me... I am infected with the plague of complacency... stupid, wait and things will get better and I will miraculously change. Wait... giving a crap and moving my friggin ASS will help.
I am worth a crap! I am worth the movement, I am worth fixing myself, I am worth more than I have given myself credit for.
I have said this, written this and believed this before... TOMORROW IS the day... tomorrow... always tomorrow. When will tomorrow be TODAY?? I guess January 31, 2016 IS the day! I must get up and MOVE. Food has been ok for awhile now... workingout has been non-existent. That ends NOW...
Chubby Chick... ready to move.
Thursday, January 28, 2016
A Total Waste of Time
Well again I have failed myself! I have let the limited time I have here float away in the mundane. I had high hopes for the future... today is the future. Well, it once was, but, I have wasted that!
Tomorrow is the "future". I should... should...should. I am tired of living in the should. One day I will wake up and see that I have wasted more time than I have worked. So what my knees hurt, everyone has aches and pains. I need to move the best I can... that means pushing myself. I have been lounging in this limbo space... waiting. Waiting for what, the perfect weather, time to spare, not feeling like I need a nap.
There are so many things that I want to do. I need to move, physically, mentally and personally. Why do I feel paralyzed??? Is it fear? Is it complacency? Is is laziness? Dang these are hard questions. Questions that need real answers, real movement, real work!!!
Failure is in the past. I know what I want and what I must do.
- Be in The Word EVERYDAY!!!
- Move everyday
- Write everyday
- Enjoy LIFE
Here is to moving forward to the me I need to be.
Chubby Chick... the true me!
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
New Year... AGAIN
Wow, how does the time go so fast. I guess it is time to get off the couch, scoop my crap into a handy pile and get moving.
I have declared that 2015 is the year of "Calm". 2014 has been a bit rough. We had the kitchen flood, which the kitchen is mostly done...after 7 months. Daughter and her kids moved in for a while and moved out to live with her in-laws. I certainly did not do the things that I had on my "list".
I did declare July 19th to be the anniversary of the new me. So time to snap out of this FUNK that I have found myself in. By the anniversary I WILL be down 45-50 pounds. I know what that means... eat right and MOVE.
In 2015 I do want to do several things, 1) Take a picture each day... not sure if I want it to be of the same subject, different things. I had better get that figured out by tomorrow. 2) Get this weight under control. 3) Make Christmas gifts each month, and do a project every 2-3 weeks. 4) Read a book per month.
Calm, joyful and relaxed that is how I will describe 2015, 365 days from now.
I have declared that 2015 is the year of "Calm". 2014 has been a bit rough. We had the kitchen flood, which the kitchen is mostly done...after 7 months. Daughter and her kids moved in for a while and moved out to live with her in-laws. I certainly did not do the things that I had on my "list".
I did declare July 19th to be the anniversary of the new me. So time to snap out of this FUNK that I have found myself in. By the anniversary I WILL be down 45-50 pounds. I know what that means... eat right and MOVE.
In 2015 I do want to do several things, 1) Take a picture each day... not sure if I want it to be of the same subject, different things. I had better get that figured out by tomorrow. 2) Get this weight under control. 3) Make Christmas gifts each month, and do a project every 2-3 weeks. 4) Read a book per month.
Calm, joyful and relaxed that is how I will describe 2015, 365 days from now.
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