Wow... time flies

How does time get away from me??  How could I be in this "holding" pattern for so long.  Well, if I have to be honest (here is the place) I have NOT been holding.  I have been descending into fatter!!  


My past few months have been very frustrating for me.  
I did join a gym...only went for a few months and I did not really feel that I was moving forward.  I actually gained weight about 8 pounds (deep sadness) .  
Then I gave up for a while.  
Then the beginning of  March a friend and I joined a different gym. Well, I was at the heaviest I have ever been.  228... tears of embarrassment!!!  That gym was a bit weird, it was in these people's home, in their garage with their dogs and motorcycles. They were polygamists, I was working with the wives. I was starting to feel better and was down 4 pounds. I was going to have to start working with the husband on nutrition.     He really gives me the creeps!   
Well, I joined a different gym today!  I am really excited!  We meet with a trainer tomorrow!  I understand the nutrition and will really try to get a handle on it in the next couple weeks.
  
It has been a long time (7 months) since I wrote.  I plan to write everyday to really  see the progress that this CHUBBY CHICK is making.  

The plan: I seem to always be about the plan.  Why then am I still standing here on the edge of the cliff.  I am not scared to move, I am scared of making great progress (like with Scot- 65 pounds) and then falling back into this CHUBBYness.  
1) I like working out... makes me feel strong and more energized.  So I will         workout at the gym Monday-Friday!  
2) I feel like CRAP when I eat like CRAP!  So I will do my best to eat better.
3) I know that I need stretch, I will do my YOGA video 3 days per week (Tues-     Thurs-Sat)
4) I am signing up for a 5K in June, I will start "running" 3 days per week           (Mon-Wed- Fri)


I am NOT going to plan how fast I am going to lose. That is a problem that I have before!  

I am committing to losing 75 pounds! More importantly I will NEVER gain it back.  I will be 50 in 3 years, and I will NOT FIGHT my weight after I turn 50.