What a Great START

I have a picture of how I want my body to look, it is healthy and fit.  I WILL never by skinny and do not want to be.  I remember when I was in high school and the mormon girls told me that I have "breeders" hips...they would know!  

I did do ok with food yesterday, I did have an extra cookie and an extra roll.  I was good with one of each.  That is ok it was the first day and I feel Great.

My treadmill and I were best buddies.  I did walk 5 miles over the course of the day.  I walked 6 times for 15 minutes each!  Not bad for a chubby chick!

I have figured out the pains of my past are scared over and are no longer scabs.  I will not pick at them any longer.  Lets face it scars do not need any treatment.  They are just there and I will not treat them with my medication of choice...FOOD.

I do know that losing weight will NOT make me happier, it will however make me more content with my body and how it looks!  Happiness comes from a place inside and is a CHOICE  I choose ME!!!

Plan of Attack

Well the pondering stage is over and the action part is underway.

Ok so the thought of counting anything, calories, points, carbs, makes my brain explode!  The other day I was with a friend who is going to a trainer and he has her writing EVERYTHING on this sheet of paper.  To watch it was excruciating.  

Looking at Naturally Thin people, I see they do not count, or write, or worry about the numbers.  So I will NOT count.  I have had portion size and moderation pounded into my head over the last few years.  I know that there is a naturally thin person in trapped in me. So the sooner I start living the Dream the better!

There are a lot of active things I would like to try.  I did golf in a golf marathon for my son's school and I would like to learn how to really play.  Also I would like to take tennis lessons, snow showing is an activity that I would like to try.  I like to walk and would like to get closer to running.  I will be doing 3 5K's this summer and WILL be (walk/jog) wagging a 1/2 marathon in October.  So I will be hitting the treadmill 15 minutes of all even  hours.  I will work up to running!  I do have a couple workout DVD's that I may eventually get to doing 3-4 days per week!

Well the treadmill is calling for the fourth time today.  I will be free!



 

Still up in the air

Well yesterday went ok on the moving forward front.  Ok so a decision has not been reached as to the course of action to ultimately take.  

I did drink all my 100 oz of water, and countless trips to the potty! I did get 2 servings of fruit/ veggie in.  I wanted 3 for a start...wait I did have chocolate covered raisins.  I think that counter balances itself.LOL

I thought about visiting my old friend tread mill, however that just did not WORKOUT...get it workout!  LOL

So until I really get a plan I will stick to the 100oz of water and 3 fruit/veggies per day. I will not rush into a plan that I will abandon along the side of the "road" like a stalk of celery!

I did however leave the cookies that sit on the counter alone and they left me alone also!

Journey???

Well it was a little over 8 years ago that I stepped on the scale that dreaded morning.  I weighed 207 pounds, oh, the horror.  I promptly joined Weight Watchers and over the course of the next 9 or so months I lost 50 pounds!  I kept it off for about a year!  Goody for me.  Well then I got pregnant and after having my son I slowly have been gaining.

I have gained the whole 50 pounds back over the course of almost 6 years.  I have comforted myself with at least I have not gained more than the 50 I lost...small consolation!  

So where does that put me??? I am no longer in my 30's I am securely (next month I will be 44) in my mid 40's.  It will be harder to lose the weight again.  I am not sure I have the same "fight" in me that I did have back then.  Yet I do have other reasons to get "fit"  

I know that when I lost the weight the last time it was mainly for ascetics and looks. Now I guess my reasons would be more of health related.  Not that I have any issues now,but, I am getting older and these things are more "real" now than they were in my 30's.  

So with that said I am still undecided as to a course of action and a plan of attack.   Ok so usually I am a very black and white person.  There is one area is my that I seem to be of 2 minds.  Weight Loss.

One part of me is happy the way I am.  I do not seem to have any health problems related to my weight, ok, so my knee grumbles and complains.  I do what I want.  It seems like such a pain to work on losing weight!  

The other parts sees the future as not as rosy.  Things only get slower and harder the older we get.  If eliminating this extra weight will ease this changes then I "should"  be all over that.

So now I know what I "should" do and what I "want" to do.  Now to get these 2 halves of the "whole" me together in a moderate plan with some kind of movement.

I tend to be an ALL or NOTHING kind of girl.  It is on the couch with a bag of chips with a cookie chaser or on the tread mill and swearing of sugar forever.  

Well I know I ONLY have 50 pounds to lose.  I say that with a straight face Yes ONLY.  If I lost 1 pound per week I would be 50 pounds lighter when the 2012 starts!  Then the other part of me says if I kill it and lose 2 pounds per week, I could be "done" by our 25th wedding anniversary!


Oh, the trauma of decision, to make a plan and work the plan!