Journey???

Well it was a little over 8 years ago that I stepped on the scale that dreaded morning.  I weighed 207 pounds, oh, the horror.  I promptly joined Weight Watchers and over the course of the next 9 or so months I lost 50 pounds!  I kept it off for about a year!  Goody for me.  Well then I got pregnant and after having my son I slowly have been gaining.

I have gained the whole 50 pounds back over the course of almost 6 years.  I have comforted myself with at least I have not gained more than the 50 I lost...small consolation!  

So where does that put me??? I am no longer in my 30's I am securely (next month I will be 44) in my mid 40's.  It will be harder to lose the weight again.  I am not sure I have the same "fight" in me that I did have back then.  Yet I do have other reasons to get "fit"  

I know that when I lost the weight the last time it was mainly for ascetics and looks. Now I guess my reasons would be more of health related.  Not that I have any issues now,but, I am getting older and these things are more "real" now than they were in my 30's.  

So with that said I am still undecided as to a course of action and a plan of attack.   Ok so usually I am a very black and white person.  There is one area is my that I seem to be of 2 minds.  Weight Loss.

One part of me is happy the way I am.  I do not seem to have any health problems related to my weight, ok, so my knee grumbles and complains.  I do what I want.  It seems like such a pain to work on losing weight!  

The other parts sees the future as not as rosy.  Things only get slower and harder the older we get.  If eliminating this extra weight will ease this changes then I "should"  be all over that.

So now I know what I "should" do and what I "want" to do.  Now to get these 2 halves of the "whole" me together in a moderate plan with some kind of movement.

I tend to be an ALL or NOTHING kind of girl.  It is on the couch with a bag of chips with a cookie chaser or on the tread mill and swearing of sugar forever.  

Well I know I ONLY have 50 pounds to lose.  I say that with a straight face Yes ONLY.  If I lost 1 pound per week I would be 50 pounds lighter when the 2012 starts!  Then the other part of me says if I kill it and lose 2 pounds per week, I could be "done" by our 25th wedding anniversary!


Oh, the trauma of decision, to make a plan and work the plan!