One Cookie Day

Well yesterday I started on the Plexus that a couple of my friends are doing.  I am not sure if it was subliminal or if it was the stuff, but, I think I was less hungry.   I did have ONE cookie, ok it was not a little cookie, however, it was only one!  YAY!  I weighed this morning, I am down 1 pound!  Should have been on cloud 9.  One down 59 to go! 

Yet, that said this morning I was definatley feeling FAT, not the cute words that we all use like, fluffy, pleasantly plump, (my fave) CHUBBY, portly, or Sausage Mom, no I was just plain FAT.  I kept telling myself that yesterday was a new day and the begining of an ADVENTURE.  Yet there was that voice... You are FAT...just give up.

Then it hit me I have been demonizing SUGAR and making it my "mortal enemy" yet it is just a tool of the real ENEMY... SELF SABOTAGE.  Again I must get out of my head!  Hard to do because, as the old saying goes.  If your head were not attached you would lose it.  Well it is here.  I must be NICE to myself,  stop being so critical.

I need to do something nice everyday, not weight or health related, just nice.   Not sure if it sould be just for me, or for others.  I do like serving others.  Well that is something to ponder!  

Off to have a nice day
Chubby Chick 

Hummingbird

So yesterday as I sat on the patio enjoying my latte getting ready to attack the day, the funniest thing happened.

I have a hummingbird feeder on the patio in hopes to attract the cute little birds.  Well, here comes one and it flits around eating the nectar (sugar water) seems happy.  Then it takes off straight into the ceiling of the patio that we have painted blue.  I think it thought it was the sky??  Well the little guy or gal bonked its head and then flew away. 

That got me to thinking.  Maybe the hummingbird with its brain the size of a sunflower seed at best, is making better decisions than I am.   First it ate a tiny bit, then was off and moving again.  When it bonked its head it did not go back to the food to comfort itself, it continued on its day.  

Don't get me wrong I understand there are vast differences between myself and a hummingbird, but, the ability to move on not get stuck is what I need.

The loop in my head needs to find another track to get on.  Note to self...Work on that!  Not to the point of obsessing on the new, just find the loop that fits the here and now. 

I tend to be an ALL or NOTHING kind of gal, I have spoken often of this elusive moderation thing.  I see brief glimpses of it, I would like to see it all the time...wait that is the ALL in me talking.  :0   

Well here I go on the "part time"  quest to find Moderation.  :)
 Hang in there 
Chubby Chick

Back on that Horse

Friday is here again.  Another week of ... "Crap! I should have done better this week".   Well I know there are plenty of "reasons" ok excuses, crutches, & lame attempts to justify why I did not get my chubby butt into gear this week.  

If I list them, then maybe they would be burned up in the atmosphere, or would they be brought to the forefront of  my mind and be used more often???
Well I think I am going to try the burn theory .

Tired-
      Can't get up early
      Can't work out after work
      If I rest I will feel better tomorrow
Stressed-
      Wedding coming up (plans very slow) 
      Home projects need done
            Too hot to work outside
            Can't decide which to do first
            Chubby!- disappointed at the weight gain!
Busy-
       2 Jobs
       Mom- Wife- Grandma
       Volunteer stuff

I am sure that there are more sub-excuses, I think those are the big ones!

Well I need to get out of my head and move forward toward the ME I want to BE!

So now I will pull up my "Big Girl Panties!"  and up on my work out pants and get moving!  I will cut myself some slack, this means I am NOT training for a MARATHON TODAY.  I will take BABY STEPS!!!! BUT movement forward starts NOW!  

Happy Weekend to me 
Chubby Chick  

Tripped and fell into the SUGAR BOWL!

How does this happen??  I start off with the best of intentions and BAM!  Right there in the middle of motivation is a freaking doughnut...oh yeah, I sent Liz to the store to buy them.  They were for the family.  Whatever!!!  Like I did not know that "if they are here I would eat them". 

Who am I kidding.  Sugar is my Nemesis, Arch Enemy, and The Evil Ugh!  No matter the name it is still a thorn in my side.  Why of why can't my weakness be fruits and veggies???  

Well, a couple of my friends are using this Plexus Slim, it is supposed to help with sugar cravings and get your body into natural balance.  Well, (I know another hair brained scheme for me) I signed up to be an Ambassador.  So it should be here the middle of the week.  I am kinda excited, I took before pics this morning.  "Not appropriate for Most audiences".  I am hopeful, if it can just help with the Sugar cravings, I will be a happy Chubby Chick!

 The wedding is 1 month and 2 days away barring any freak accidents I will not be at my goal weight... LOL  I am going to be happy no matter what!!

I did get up and do a mini workout and walked 2 miles.  I plan to do another mini workout this evening!  Sad thing is I let myself get this out of shape again.  But, I can only go on from here!  I will dust the sugar off my face and move on.

Chubby Chick

    

January posts

Well, January 1st brought a new haircut!  I know that is not a big thing adventure wise, however, I did it in my bathroom relatively unsupervised!  Ok, so my 20 year old daughter did the actual scissor work, cause it was the back and lets face it...cutting hair that you can not see is not the brightest thing!

So today's adventure is to take my 7 year old to explore where this "new" walking path goes.  Not too adventuresome, except that it is 19 degrees outside and spitting snow.  He is packing a backpack of provisions.  :0

I am sure that hot chocolate (mine with peppermint schnapps) will be in order when we return!

January 3, 2013  

So first I want to make it clear that I do not consider Chubby Chick a bad thing. 

I do not mind my curves, however, I wish there were more flat spots to make the curves seem more intentional.   This year is a fresh start and I want to make the most of it.

I am 45, married for 26 years with 3 kids and one brand new grand daughter.  I work part time and volunteer part time.   I am on a journey, not just to lose weight, but, also to find adventure.  The adventure I am seeking is something new everyday, not climb Everest type, just see the new and exciting in everyday!

Stay tuned to see how the journey unfolds!

Finally Friday!

Well Friday is here and I am OFF of work.  I like Fridays, because Sam and I can do something fun together.  Today we have to get things ready for the church yard sale (he would question the fun in that), I will take him to McDonalds (that is no question in his mind FUN) then we will watch a movie (if I pout enough I might get to pick it (:  ).  

Food yesterday was ok, I did have 4 oreos,  I guess it is not the whole bag and a Fat Boy.  Really need to find an alternative to the sugar.  I did not try the naked screaming bit... That may be what this is coming to!  Desperate times call for desperate measures.

This morning I did go walk.  I walked 3 miles that is right on track to get me caught up.  3 more tomorrow and Sunday, then it is just 2 per day for the rest of the summer.  I have been thinking that on the days I work at school I will walk to work and home, that would be 3 extra miles per day.  When it cools off I may walk to Farm Bureau also, that would be 1 more mile per day.  They say it is the little things that help you lose weight, like park your car as far from the door at the store and walk.  I think that is the farthest I could park...ok I could drive 1 or 2 miles out of town and walk from there... I am thinking that is over kill.

Today is going to be a good day!  I am going to beat sugar into the ground!

Chubby Chick

Wonderful Wednesday!

Yesterday was a very event filled day.  God Blessed me in so many ways.  I got to go to the job I Love, went to a funeral, lunch with friends (quite a bit of chatting), took in a donation for $5,000 for the most pressing need at school!  God is Good!  Dinner with family for Liz's birthday, plan made to put in Gina's door on Saturday!  Then home to bed!

Food front was ok, I did have some licorice and 2 oreos after work.  I just need to get on top of this sugar thing.  I know and have known for a long time where my Enemy lurks.  I know it sneaks up on my from behind and whispers in my ear.  "Just a little will not hurt"... I need to strip off all my clothes and stand in front of a mirror and scream back -"LIAR LIAR".  That is a good thought except it may come across as ODD in the grocery store! :)  I must say I am too chubby to be having my picture on the News like that!  

Today I did get up early and go for a walk.   My goal was 100 miles this summer.  WELL, I need to walk 2 miles everyday till school starts.  I walked 1 this morning, so it was more like a WA__, only half done!  Well I had better get moving, 2 jobs and a meeting are waiting for me today!!!

On the the big adventure

Chubby Chick

Wow what a bumpy ride!

I just read my last post, life has taken so many strange turns in the last 2 1/2 years

Weight Loss-
1) That trainer that I mentioned, I started going to him and I lost 65 pounds.
2) He quit 8 months later.
3) Over the course between then and now I gained 55 of that back.
4) Too many "start overs" than I can count!

Personal life-
1) My MIL moved to assisted living (out of our house)
2) Daughter graduated high school, moved out, got pregnant, moved back in, had baby, now getting married.
3) Son went to Afghanistan, now home safe.
4) Started 2 part time jobs within a month.


I am tired and frustrated with this "Start Over" thing... I know, DON'T QUIT.  Well there is this self sabotage thing that I just can't seem to get over.  I am thinking maybe if I talk to my self here everyday that I can keep my brain inline and keep moving forward.

I am sure I can get back to my goal weight, size (yes it is important), and health.  Can I stay there that is the daunting question...the one that strikes fear in the heart of this Chubby Chick.  A friend told me it is not your weight that we love it is you... Well I will be the same ME in cuter clothes.  Yes shallow, but, honest.  

So I am armed and ready for the day, Head in the Game CHECK,  Big Girl Panties CHECK, & Self Sabotage in Storage  CHECK.

Today is going to be the day!
Chubby Chick