I just read my last post, life has taken so many strange turns in the last 2 1/2 years
Weight Loss-
1) That trainer that I mentioned, I started going to him and I lost 65 pounds.
2) He quit 8 months later.
3) Over the course between then and now I gained 55 of that back.
4) Too many "start overs" than I can count!
Personal life-
1) My MIL moved to assisted living (out of our house)
2) Daughter graduated high school, moved out, got pregnant, moved back in, had baby, now getting married.
3) Son went to Afghanistan, now home safe.
4) Started 2 part time jobs within a month.
I am tired and frustrated with this "Start Over" thing... I know, DON'T QUIT. Well there is this self sabotage thing that I just can't seem to get over. I am thinking maybe if I talk to my self here everyday that I can keep my brain inline and keep moving forward.
I am sure I can get back to my goal weight, size (yes it is important), and health. Can I stay there that is the daunting question...the one that strikes fear in the heart of this Chubby Chick. A friend told me it is not your weight that we love it is you... Well I will be the same ME in cuter clothes. Yes shallow, but, honest.
So I am armed and ready for the day, Head in the Game CHECK, Big Girl Panties CHECK, & Self Sabotage in Storage CHECK.
Today is going to be the day!
Chubby Chick
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