Week In Review

Wow what a week.  There has been "drama", joy, success and exhaustion.  These 2 weeks are just going to be a challenge, with admissions in high gear, needing to get the Farm Bureau stuff done to take next week off,   wedding prep, school starting, Kevin's Birthday and the first full week at the gym! 

This week I got to the gym 5 days in a row!!!  Yay, that makes me very happy.  Now the food front has been a bit disappointing, the afternoon eating gets me.  I am tired and eat, oh, not the healthy stuff, no the CRAP!!!!  Well, next week it is something to work on.

I am really going to log all my food in the Loseit! app... no matter the crap I eat, then I can see where I stumble and fall.  I already know where that is.  So with my (large) big girl panties on, I will be successful with food this next week!

This busy week coming does not mean that I should slack!  It means I need to FIGHT, and maybe take a nap or two!

On to start a action packed day!

Chubby Chick

Cute Clothes Here I Come!

There are always those people who look cute no matter the size of their bodies, they have STYLE!  My friend LeAnn is one of those.  And I love hanging out with her, cause she really rubs off.   She makes people want to be more stylish.  I am going to go get some cute work clothes for fall in the next month or so.  Whatever the size I can look put together and "age appropriate". 

 We used to work out every week day together.  Then our trainer quit (YES I still have abandonment issues!) and life took over.  She and another friend of ours is signing up for the Curves gym that I joined last week!  YAY  we will all get to do something healthy for ourselves, see each other and laugh.  THEN I can get smaller cute clothes! 

I miss the me time that I used to have a couple years ago.  Get up go workout, have fun, sip my protein latte and just get ready for the day.  Seems I have fallen back into the every one and everything is more important than my time alone.  I LOVE people and talking, but, I need time to just be with me.  I know it is selfish and I should not feel this way, however, I feel I am a better servant if I can get a good start to the day.

I am just feeling great about the choice to start at the new gym.  I want to start walking in the evening too.  Maybe it is the anticipation of Fall...my favorite season... I just am feeling Great.  Ok it is going to be 100 tomorrow, but, the mornings are cool and I know it is just around the corner!

Today is going to be a busy and very productive day.  I have 4 tours at school, clean up the school bathroom paint job, mow the lawn, weed the flower beds, baby sit Lexie, and then a skirt party.  Today IS going to be Great!

Off to enjoy the blessings God has for me

Chubby Chick

First Day Workout

The first day working out at the new gym went well.  I was the only one there at 6am.  The coach was very nice.  I think once I get the hang of the machines it will be as challenging as I can make it.   She will set me up on the computer in 2 weeks.  It tracks how hard I work and the red or green light comes on according to if I am working hard enough.  Can't just phone it in!

I am feeling really good about my commitment to getting myself back in shape and moving toward long term better health... OH Yeah, and CUTE CLOTHES!!!!   Ok it is mostly about cute clothes.  I have 5 adorable coats that are suffocating in one of those giant ziplock bags.  I WILL be wearing them by November!!!!    Free the coats! Free the coats!

This week is going to be busy, with school starting, Kevin's Birthday, and the wedding next week.  We had a nice day shopping with Gina yesterday at the Antique Mall.  My brain was a buzz with ideas...but, I have a lot of unfinished projects in the garage.  Must do those first, must do those first.  I will get past this next couple of weeks and then "Projectpalluza"  will begin.

Off to embrace or conquer the world...either way I win!!!

Chubby Chick  

Adventure

Feeling very "Fallish" today.  I am looking at the next 2 months and thinking...yes... thinking I need (want for mental security) a PLAN!


If I list all the things I have to and want to do then I can organize them, prioritize them and them get them done.  Well the theory is based on some fact. So here the list for the next 2.5 months (Aug 11- Oct 31).  Now for the color code- August, September, October

Liz Wedding
Liz & Lexi move
Paint the school bathrooms
help with the open house
pull all my weeds
pick the peaches and plums
freeze the peaches and plums
Flip Flops and Lemon Drops
school starts
swimming with Seth 
getting Sam in a homework routine
Camping & Sept
getting the trailer home
boating & Sept
taking down the pool
decorate for fall
cleaning up the yard
Christmas Shopping
bike rides/ walks everyday after school
cooking dinner...I do not cook much now but want to try harder
clean the garage
paint my table and chairs
paint Liz old room
move the treadmill
get Auction stuff going
open nights at school

So that is the start of the list.  I am sure that it will increase as time goes on.
Off to begin the Adventure!
Chubby Chick

Today is "The Day"

Getting my workout clothes on and getting ready to hit the new gym.  I am kinda excited! On Wednesday we did a weigh in and measured me,  I am eager to see progress.  I did start using my LoseIt! app on my phone, logging all my food and work outs.

I think my workout buddy LeAnn may be thinking about starting at Curves with me.  I hope so, she is a so much fun.  She has been under so much stress that I think it would be good for her to do something for herself.  That is how I am feeling about doing something for myself too!

I did get some good news, I took my BP at the store the other day it was 128/68 which it said was a bit on the borderline side.  When I went to the gym for my eval it was 113/60!  Whoo that makes me feel better.  Now to work on getting this tonnage under control.

Must get moving on this adventure!  According to the APP I should be at my goal weight by my birthday... that would be GREAT, a new year and a new me!  Me and my PLANS!  I will start to "run" on my birthday!  I will make a Running Plan closer to my birthday.  

Off to attack the day!  

Chubby Chick

Clothes Shopping

Well I felt yesterday was a good day.  I worked, ate well there, got home to mow the lawn that is where some trouble started.
I ate a Fat Boy ice cream sandwich... crap, crap, crap, then I ate a doughnut that was left on the counter (in the box... I am not an animal!).  Why did I not just take a 10 minute nap and skip the sugar??  Why??

Then I decided I was not "in the mood" to mow the lawn... ok it was 95 degrees and I did not feel the need to take a shower at 3:00 when I would be done.  Really the shower was not the issue it was the getting redressed part...bra and all!

So Plan "B" struck me... yes, we just discussed at length my planning problem yesterday!  I went to the mall in search of the FitBit arm band (yes new gadget).  It could not be found...  :(   So I started looking for a dress for Liz's wedding coming up in 2.5 weeks.  I am not going to lose enough weight in that time to effect the size or fit of a dress.

Found some cute cowboy boots, and 2 dresses.  Then I realized I like to look at clothes... really how does one forget that!!!   I did not matter the size was not what it was 2 years ago, clothes are still cute.  YES, I want to be in smaller ones, but, decided I am going shopping once per week.  Not to buy anything just to look, feel and dream.  I usually buy my clothes at a thrift store when I am losing or gaining weight...  this time I am not.  I will shop at discount stores, and clearance wracks, but ONLY new is good enough for me.  Ok maybe a few used (super nice) pieces!  

Also came to the realization that I am not going to workout on my own. I knew this from the beginning,  however, I kept hoping that I could change myself.  That said I stopped at a women only workout place, Curves for Women on the way home, made an appointment to have an evaluation and talk to a lady today at 5!    I guess it was an impromptu PLAN!

Well, today will by busy, work at ZCS, paint the bathrooms @ ZCS and then the eval.  I had better get moving!

Chubby Chick 

Polly Planner

Well, I am defiantly a "Polly Planner" not "Eleanor Executor".  I seem to always be in the planning stage.  It is kinda sad to find a notebook that I started and made a detailed plan.  Then see how much time has passed and yet here I sit, SAD.  

Funny how the best plans come to me when I can not start them RIGHT NOW!  They always come to me as I am getting ready for bed, or sit at work, or worse during a super busy time.  There always seem to be reasons that "The Plan"  needs to wait.  Better weather, new piece of equipment, not so tired, my knee hurts, have a headache or the dreaded TOMORROW are all reasons that I use. 

Last night I made a (baby step) PLAN!  Do kick boxing 3 times per week, Wog 3 times per week,  3 veggies and 2 fruits per day, and not more than 1 hour of TV.  I got up at 6 to go for a walk.  It was still kinda dark...baby you should have gotten your butt out there!! Yet I got on the computer...  Very disappointed with myself.  I have no one and nothing to blame but myself for this problem.

Well, as I reread this I can defiantly see PMS at work here.  I need to stop beating myself up and just move and eat well.  Be NICE Chubby Chick... 

Today I will mow the lawn after work, meet a friend for dinner, and go for a walk before bed.  Oh Yeah talk nicely to myself!

On to be an Eleanor Executor 

CHUBBY CHICK

One Cookie Day

Well yesterday I started on the Plexus that a couple of my friends are doing.  I am not sure if it was subliminal or if it was the stuff, but, I think I was less hungry.   I did have ONE cookie, ok it was not a little cookie, however, it was only one!  YAY!  I weighed this morning, I am down 1 pound!  Should have been on cloud 9.  One down 59 to go! 

Yet, that said this morning I was definatley feeling FAT, not the cute words that we all use like, fluffy, pleasantly plump, (my fave) CHUBBY, portly, or Sausage Mom, no I was just plain FAT.  I kept telling myself that yesterday was a new day and the begining of an ADVENTURE.  Yet there was that voice... You are FAT...just give up.

Then it hit me I have been demonizing SUGAR and making it my "mortal enemy" yet it is just a tool of the real ENEMY... SELF SABOTAGE.  Again I must get out of my head!  Hard to do because, as the old saying goes.  If your head were not attached you would lose it.  Well it is here.  I must be NICE to myself,  stop being so critical.

I need to do something nice everyday, not weight or health related, just nice.   Not sure if it sould be just for me, or for others.  I do like serving others.  Well that is something to ponder!  

Off to have a nice day
Chubby Chick 

Hummingbird

So yesterday as I sat on the patio enjoying my latte getting ready to attack the day, the funniest thing happened.

I have a hummingbird feeder on the patio in hopes to attract the cute little birds.  Well, here comes one and it flits around eating the nectar (sugar water) seems happy.  Then it takes off straight into the ceiling of the patio that we have painted blue.  I think it thought it was the sky??  Well the little guy or gal bonked its head and then flew away. 

That got me to thinking.  Maybe the hummingbird with its brain the size of a sunflower seed at best, is making better decisions than I am.   First it ate a tiny bit, then was off and moving again.  When it bonked its head it did not go back to the food to comfort itself, it continued on its day.  

Don't get me wrong I understand there are vast differences between myself and a hummingbird, but, the ability to move on not get stuck is what I need.

The loop in my head needs to find another track to get on.  Note to self...Work on that!  Not to the point of obsessing on the new, just find the loop that fits the here and now. 

I tend to be an ALL or NOTHING kind of gal, I have spoken often of this elusive moderation thing.  I see brief glimpses of it, I would like to see it all the time...wait that is the ALL in me talking.  :0   

Well here I go on the "part time"  quest to find Moderation.  :)
 Hang in there 
Chubby Chick

Back on that Horse

Friday is here again.  Another week of ... "Crap! I should have done better this week".   Well I know there are plenty of "reasons" ok excuses, crutches, & lame attempts to justify why I did not get my chubby butt into gear this week.  

If I list them, then maybe they would be burned up in the atmosphere, or would they be brought to the forefront of  my mind and be used more often???
Well I think I am going to try the burn theory .

Tired-
      Can't get up early
      Can't work out after work
      If I rest I will feel better tomorrow
Stressed-
      Wedding coming up (plans very slow) 
      Home projects need done
            Too hot to work outside
            Can't decide which to do first
            Chubby!- disappointed at the weight gain!
Busy-
       2 Jobs
       Mom- Wife- Grandma
       Volunteer stuff

I am sure that there are more sub-excuses, I think those are the big ones!

Well I need to get out of my head and move forward toward the ME I want to BE!

So now I will pull up my "Big Girl Panties!"  and up on my work out pants and get moving!  I will cut myself some slack, this means I am NOT training for a MARATHON TODAY.  I will take BABY STEPS!!!! BUT movement forward starts NOW!  

Happy Weekend to me 
Chubby Chick  

Tripped and fell into the SUGAR BOWL!

How does this happen??  I start off with the best of intentions and BAM!  Right there in the middle of motivation is a freaking doughnut...oh yeah, I sent Liz to the store to buy them.  They were for the family.  Whatever!!!  Like I did not know that "if they are here I would eat them". 

Who am I kidding.  Sugar is my Nemesis, Arch Enemy, and The Evil Ugh!  No matter the name it is still a thorn in my side.  Why of why can't my weakness be fruits and veggies???  

Well, a couple of my friends are using this Plexus Slim, it is supposed to help with sugar cravings and get your body into natural balance.  Well, (I know another hair brained scheme for me) I signed up to be an Ambassador.  So it should be here the middle of the week.  I am kinda excited, I took before pics this morning.  "Not appropriate for Most audiences".  I am hopeful, if it can just help with the Sugar cravings, I will be a happy Chubby Chick!

 The wedding is 1 month and 2 days away barring any freak accidents I will not be at my goal weight... LOL  I am going to be happy no matter what!!

I did get up and do a mini workout and walked 2 miles.  I plan to do another mini workout this evening!  Sad thing is I let myself get this out of shape again.  But, I can only go on from here!  I will dust the sugar off my face and move on.

Chubby Chick

    

January posts

Well, January 1st brought a new haircut!  I know that is not a big thing adventure wise, however, I did it in my bathroom relatively unsupervised!  Ok, so my 20 year old daughter did the actual scissor work, cause it was the back and lets face it...cutting hair that you can not see is not the brightest thing!

So today's adventure is to take my 7 year old to explore where this "new" walking path goes.  Not too adventuresome, except that it is 19 degrees outside and spitting snow.  He is packing a backpack of provisions.  :0

I am sure that hot chocolate (mine with peppermint schnapps) will be in order when we return!

January 3, 2013  

So first I want to make it clear that I do not consider Chubby Chick a bad thing. 

I do not mind my curves, however, I wish there were more flat spots to make the curves seem more intentional.   This year is a fresh start and I want to make the most of it.

I am 45, married for 26 years with 3 kids and one brand new grand daughter.  I work part time and volunteer part time.   I am on a journey, not just to lose weight, but, also to find adventure.  The adventure I am seeking is something new everyday, not climb Everest type, just see the new and exciting in everyday!

Stay tuned to see how the journey unfolds!

Finally Friday!

Well Friday is here and I am OFF of work.  I like Fridays, because Sam and I can do something fun together.  Today we have to get things ready for the church yard sale (he would question the fun in that), I will take him to McDonalds (that is no question in his mind FUN) then we will watch a movie (if I pout enough I might get to pick it (:  ).  

Food yesterday was ok, I did have 4 oreos,  I guess it is not the whole bag and a Fat Boy.  Really need to find an alternative to the sugar.  I did not try the naked screaming bit... That may be what this is coming to!  Desperate times call for desperate measures.

This morning I did go walk.  I walked 3 miles that is right on track to get me caught up.  3 more tomorrow and Sunday, then it is just 2 per day for the rest of the summer.  I have been thinking that on the days I work at school I will walk to work and home, that would be 3 extra miles per day.  When it cools off I may walk to Farm Bureau also, that would be 1 more mile per day.  They say it is the little things that help you lose weight, like park your car as far from the door at the store and walk.  I think that is the farthest I could park...ok I could drive 1 or 2 miles out of town and walk from there... I am thinking that is over kill.

Today is going to be a good day!  I am going to beat sugar into the ground!

Chubby Chick

Wonderful Wednesday!

Yesterday was a very event filled day.  God Blessed me in so many ways.  I got to go to the job I Love, went to a funeral, lunch with friends (quite a bit of chatting), took in a donation for $5,000 for the most pressing need at school!  God is Good!  Dinner with family for Liz's birthday, plan made to put in Gina's door on Saturday!  Then home to bed!

Food front was ok, I did have some licorice and 2 oreos after work.  I just need to get on top of this sugar thing.  I know and have known for a long time where my Enemy lurks.  I know it sneaks up on my from behind and whispers in my ear.  "Just a little will not hurt"... I need to strip off all my clothes and stand in front of a mirror and scream back -"LIAR LIAR".  That is a good thought except it may come across as ODD in the grocery store! :)  I must say I am too chubby to be having my picture on the News like that!  

Today I did get up early and go for a walk.   My goal was 100 miles this summer.  WELL, I need to walk 2 miles everyday till school starts.  I walked 1 this morning, so it was more like a WA__, only half done!  Well I had better get moving, 2 jobs and a meeting are waiting for me today!!!

On the the big adventure

Chubby Chick

Wow what a bumpy ride!

I just read my last post, life has taken so many strange turns in the last 2 1/2 years

Weight Loss-
1) That trainer that I mentioned, I started going to him and I lost 65 pounds.
2) He quit 8 months later.
3) Over the course between then and now I gained 55 of that back.
4) Too many "start overs" than I can count!

Personal life-
1) My MIL moved to assisted living (out of our house)
2) Daughter graduated high school, moved out, got pregnant, moved back in, had baby, now getting married.
3) Son went to Afghanistan, now home safe.
4) Started 2 part time jobs within a month.


I am tired and frustrated with this "Start Over" thing... I know, DON'T QUIT.  Well there is this self sabotage thing that I just can't seem to get over.  I am thinking maybe if I talk to my self here everyday that I can keep my brain inline and keep moving forward.

I am sure I can get back to my goal weight, size (yes it is important), and health.  Can I stay there that is the daunting question...the one that strikes fear in the heart of this Chubby Chick.  A friend told me it is not your weight that we love it is you... Well I will be the same ME in cuter clothes.  Yes shallow, but, honest.  

So I am armed and ready for the day, Head in the Game CHECK,  Big Girl Panties CHECK, & Self Sabotage in Storage  CHECK.

Today is going to be the day!
Chubby Chick