The reflection in screen

Sometimes I am so startled by the woman who is looking back at me.  It is like there are different women all the time.   I sometimes see a perky well rested energetic "girl" and others she is an exhausted old lady.  

Reality is she is somewhere in between.  I guess I need to work on getting closer to that middle ground of the middle aged woman that I am.  Will losing weight help me feel more like the me I see in my head?? Will it make me more energetic??  Will I feel younger??  

I guess the truth will come with the work and the loss of the weight.  So I must have patience... something that I have never been accused of having a lot of.  So I guess I must flex that muscle too!

Chubby Chick in for the long haul